Thursday, October 15, 2009

That which continues to give me pleasure

Today I got my IVIG which always makes me at least a little sick. Most people don't understand about what an IVIG is so I'll explain and make it as short and sweet as possible. My body does not make immunoglobulin, which helps your immune system, the way it is supposed to. The only way to help that is to replace what is missing so someone in some lab takes a whole lot of peoples blood takes out the immunoglobulin and suspends it in some kind of liquid and I get the solution thru an IV every three weeks. I'm not getting drugs thru the IV I'm getting a blood product and all that entails and it always makes me sick to some degree and has even sent me to the hospital with SEVERE migraines (broke my foot one time and walked on it all day and didn't notice the pain because my head hurt so bad). Today was only a moderately sick day, but sick enough to send me to bed off and on all day. It's bad enough the drive time and the IV time but then when I get home I still lose time to being sick.
What does this have to do with what gives me pleasure? Well a couple of days ago I was editing some pics and they were not coming out the way I wanted them to, so I looked thru some of Emily's photos that she downloaded to my computer and found a nice picture of her standing in some vines. It was a pretty good pic nicely focused, nicely composed but kind of ordinary pic taken by her roommate. I started playing around with editing it and WOW what a beautiful portrait of a beautiful girl came out. I couldn't have done it without the good photo for a base and a couple of months ago I wouldn't have known how to edit it to make the picture POP and say WOW. I put it on as my desktop picture so every time my desktop was up today I felt a little surge of pleasure and pride in both my Beautiful daughter and also in my new found talents and skills.
I have also recently worked on a collage for Sarah for her birthday which gives me that same source and feeling of pleasure. I have yet to do a special portrait or collage for the other kids but they are coming and will probably get better as I go along.
My family has always been a source of joy and happiness and always will be and when I can create something to remind me of how truly special they are; it just adds to the pleasure and keeps it in the forefront of my mind. :^D

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hi Johnina.
Sorry to read about your ongoing problems. Hopefully your growing photography skills and creativity will help you to feel better by giving yourself and others pleasure.
Keep up the good work.

All the best, Wayne