Saturday, October 9, 2010

Befriending Time

This pansy is still in it's little starter pot even though I bought it two weeks ago.  It is still healthy and waiting to be planted.  I have about 90% of my garden cleaned out now so I am making progress and they will be planted soon.  I do get frustrated with limited time and energy.  I wanted to get them planted right away.  Since I have been walking Pascal in the woods; I have gotten lots of bug bites on my ankles and lower legs and apparently whatever bit me I am allergic to.  Serious itching, bright red skin and hives.  It was bad enough I had to take Benadryl and I had to take enough so that it put me to sleep.  ZZZZZZZZ all day yesterday.  I also never know how I will feel from day to day with my medical problems so at times I get frustrated with time.
I have been reading Julia Cameron's 'The Sound Of Paper' in which she gives a situation that can cause one to hit a slump in their life and then she gives something to try to get oneself reconnected with life.  Even though this exercise is not exactly for frustration with time; it worked for me.

Try this: Most of us have been braver than we know, braver than we acknowledge.  Take pen in hand and write yourself a fan letter, thanking and praising yourself for your courage.  Be specific.  'It was brave of you to go back to graduate school.  It was brave of you to help your sister through her divorce.  It was brave of you to enter that juried show. It was brave of you to take up fly-fishing.'  Your inner artist is proud of you for your many accomplishments.  Let this letter be a place to share that pride.  Write fully and fondly, then mail yourself that letter."

When I look at what I have accomplished the frustration vanishes and is replaced with self respect.  I am grateful to have found this book and for the wise advise in it .  Johnina  :^A



Twain12 said...

what a beautiful flower...pansy time is over here but they will be one of the first flowers to greet us in spring. Hope the itching will let up soon.

Zuzana said...

It is amazing you still have bugs that can bite, here it is too cold for them now.;)
The book sounds lovely, we all need to be our biggest fans.;)
Have a lovely Sunday,

young-eclectic-encounters said...

Twain12 and Zuzana- thanks for your comments. we have started to cool off at night but we still get up to the 80's during the day and there are some winters where we don't get a hard enough freeze to kill the bugs, but we have flowers that bloom in December. Johnina :^A